Carolina Blues

So, it’s been awhile. Sorry. Been a bit busy. Now I don’t even really feel writing in this blog, but whatev. We’ll see how it goes. It’s been about 2 weeks since Shy and I moved to NC. Feels like an eternity already. Weird. Still no jobs. Shocker I know. Maybe soon though. Anyways, back to this new home of ours. It’s different. I know I’ve only been here a few weeks, but I can say in all honesty as of right now, it’s not my favorite. Now, some may see that as me saying that I regret this move, but that’s not true at all. I’m glad I moved out of Southern California. Very glad. But I guess I was expecting Raleigh to be more exciting and nourishing to my soul than it currently is. I hate to say it, but there isn’t much here that excites me… not the people, not the towns, not the location. I’ve come to realize over the years that I love the big cities. As much as it’s nice to see trees rather than dirt or buildings everywhere, I can only handle so many trees. After awhile they all start to blend together and look the same. So, all this to say, I’m sitting here in the local library looking for jobs and realizing that I have at least one year here. Maybe I’ll find that special thing about North Carolina that Shy has found. It’s likely not gonna happen, but you never know I guess. So forgive me all if I count down the days until I can go and explore another city. It seems wrong to do this, especially hearing so many wonderful things about this state, but it’s not mine. Not for me long term as of now, but I’ll be here at least a year so a year is what I’ll give it to prove me wrong. This is where I’m at and be patient with me as I work on being fully here. No bitterness, no angry feelings, but just honesty about what I’m feeling. On a lighter note, please come visit. We would even love to pick you up from the airport and let you stay on either our couch or inflatable mattress. I know, that’s the kicker.